I once claimed to love someone whom I didn't really know how to love. Sometimes we don't really love the person, we simply just hate being alone. The world had shut too many doors to my face, that the little attention she presented me with fooled both of us into believing it was love.
I asked her out already knowing the answer to my request. I chased after her till she had said yes and there after she spent three years of her life chasing after me. She got tired, but see I enjoyed having her chasing after me that at the thought of her leaving me, I fall to my knees begging her stay.
She stayed, I made a promise that things will get better and I meant it, but the problem is I didn't know that to love her, I would first have to love myself. I didn't know that to love her I needed first to be comfortable with loving my broken self. So she gave me her heart and I broke it. I left her drowning in a pool of tears and I couldn't swim to save her because I was drowning in my own insecurities. She stopped speaking to me. Her silence grew into hate which later became the wall that would separate us forever.
I grew up in a house hold where man had more girls in their lives then the letters in the words "I Love You". I'd seen good girls go bad and made a promise to myself that I would be a different kind of man, but I failed to live up to my promise. None of the man in my life had made it to the alter with one woman and committed to her till death do them part, and for a while it seemed like that would be my truth too.
I met a friend who told me to go back to the basics. He said that his Father wrote him a letter and he would bring that letter to me the next day. He brought a bible, said it was basic instructions before leaving earth. He told me that all the answers to my life's greatest questions where in this book. The more I read this bible he gave me, I saw broken men like myself. I read about King David, Joseph, Paul and then I found my story through Christ. My story was covered in sin but from sin set free. I found myself when I found Love himself and he changed my world forever.
Christ loved me from my broken self into the whole being I've become....
So to you I once failed to love, I ask this day that you forgive me and that where you are, you will learn to love with all your heart again.
And to you I've come to love, I ask that you be patient with me, kind to me as I too extend my kindness to you, and may we be willing to keep trying till we get it right, because God is Love and Love never fails.
One day I pray that my I do will truly mean I am and forever will, till God calls me home.
Yours truly
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The blind man who now sees😇
I asked her out already knowing the answer to my request. I chased after her till she had said yes and there after she spent three years of her life chasing after me. She got tired, but see I enjoyed having her chasing after me that at the thought of her leaving me, I fall to my knees begging her stay.
She stayed, I made a promise that things will get better and I meant it, but the problem is I didn't know that to love her, I would first have to love myself. I didn't know that to love her I needed first to be comfortable with loving my broken self. So she gave me her heart and I broke it. I left her drowning in a pool of tears and I couldn't swim to save her because I was drowning in my own insecurities. She stopped speaking to me. Her silence grew into hate which later became the wall that would separate us forever.
I grew up in a house hold where man had more girls in their lives then the letters in the words "I Love You". I'd seen good girls go bad and made a promise to myself that I would be a different kind of man, but I failed to live up to my promise. None of the man in my life had made it to the alter with one woman and committed to her till death do them part, and for a while it seemed like that would be my truth too.
I met a friend who told me to go back to the basics. He said that his Father wrote him a letter and he would bring that letter to me the next day. He brought a bible, said it was basic instructions before leaving earth. He told me that all the answers to my life's greatest questions where in this book. The more I read this bible he gave me, I saw broken men like myself. I read about King David, Joseph, Paul and then I found my story through Christ. My story was covered in sin but from sin set free. I found myself when I found Love himself and he changed my world forever.
Christ loved me from my broken self into the whole being I've become....
So to you I once failed to love, I ask this day that you forgive me and that where you are, you will learn to love with all your heart again.
And to you I've come to love, I ask that you be patient with me, kind to me as I too extend my kindness to you, and may we be willing to keep trying till we get it right, because God is Love and Love never fails.
One day I pray that my I do will truly mean I am and forever will, till God calls me home.
Yours truly
The blind man who now sees😇