I’m angry. I’m angry with God. I am questioning so much tonight.
Why? Why is there just so much hurt in the world? Everywhere I look these days there is hurt. Not just on the news, but with people I love. Cancer has come again. This time in one of my friends who is younger than I am who happens to be a new mom. Stage 4 and it has spread. Why? Death has unexpectedly taken away a friend’s husband this morning. A husband who was also a daddy to two precious, precious children that weren't ready to say goodbye. Why?
Why can’t these things happen to people who are bad? Why aren’t these horrible, life changing events happening to the evil people of the world? Why do they keep happening to the good people who spend their time and breath serving God and doing for others?
Why?
I don’t understand and I never will.
I think when people live long enough they start to see this type of thing on a more common basis. I miss the carefree days of being a kid when bad things only happened every now and then. Now I feel like every time I turn around something else heartbreaking is happening.
Do you know what my husband and I talked about last night? We talked about counter tops and flooring. I told him I hate our kitchen. Hate. That’s the word I used. That’s what I spent my time worrying about.
Shame on me.
What if that had been the last conversation I had with my husband? What if those were the last words I said to him?
Life is too short my friends. It’s just too short.
Love your loved ones and love them well. Go on trips. Laugh. Make memories. Don’t spend time dwelling in the negative. It sucks there. Sorry, I just don’t know how else to put it. I refuse to camp out there anymore. From now on I’m going to be working on finding the joy in every day. I don’t have time to do otherwise.
I’m angry with God. I’ve cried out in despair to Him today, but I won’t stay angry. I can’t. I can’t live that way. I need to remember all the joy that has happened around me too. We sure don’t deserve that either. Just as puzzling as it is for all the bad to happen, how is it that good things happen? That’s what my heart has to cling to tonight.
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Why? Why is there just so much hurt in the world? Everywhere I look these days there is hurt. Not just on the news, but with people I love. Cancer has come again. This time in one of my friends who is younger than I am who happens to be a new mom. Stage 4 and it has spread. Why? Death has unexpectedly taken away a friend’s husband this morning. A husband who was also a daddy to two precious, precious children that weren't ready to say goodbye. Why?
Why can’t these things happen to people who are bad? Why aren’t these horrible, life changing events happening to the evil people of the world? Why do they keep happening to the good people who spend their time and breath serving God and doing for others?
Why?
I don’t understand and I never will.
I think when people live long enough they start to see this type of thing on a more common basis. I miss the carefree days of being a kid when bad things only happened every now and then. Now I feel like every time I turn around something else heartbreaking is happening.
Do you know what my husband and I talked about last night? We talked about counter tops and flooring. I told him I hate our kitchen. Hate. That’s the word I used. That’s what I spent my time worrying about.
Shame on me.
What if that had been the last conversation I had with my husband? What if those were the last words I said to him?
Life is too short my friends. It’s just too short.
Love your loved ones and love them well. Go on trips. Laugh. Make memories. Don’t spend time dwelling in the negative. It sucks there. Sorry, I just don’t know how else to put it. I refuse to camp out there anymore. From now on I’m going to be working on finding the joy in every day. I don’t have time to do otherwise.
I’m angry with God. I’ve cried out in despair to Him today, but I won’t stay angry. I can’t. I can’t live that way. I need to remember all the joy that has happened around me too. We sure don’t deserve that either. Just as puzzling as it is for all the bad to happen, how is it that good things happen? That’s what my heart has to cling to tonight.
www.noisesouthdublin.com